The older I get, the less I know. Okay, maybe that is not actually true, but here is what is true. The older I get, the more confident I become ABOUT WHAT I DON'T KNOW...and that is an unfortunate amount. I used to be confident in who God called me to be and what God had called me to do. The longer I live, and the more honest I get with myself, the less confident I become in what I used to "know", and the more confident I become in my uncertainty.
I can honestly say today that I have NO idea about the direction my life is going any more. That is not to say that I do not have drive, a will to improve, or a heart to find God's best. Beyond being the best husband and father I can become, everything else has a huge question mark behind it. Enjoying the journey may well be a life-lesson we must all come to grips with, but I can promise you the journey is much easier to enjoy when you know you are on the correct path.
In this stage of my life I am pursuing this one truth: BE OKAY WITH NOT KNOWING. I am learning to be content with the life I am living. I am learning to be at peace with myself. I am learning that God offers hope, and God provides a plan. Because to offer hope without a plan is nothing short of cruel, and God is surely not cruel. Today - in this season of life - my job is not to know, but to be.
I am confidently uncertain because the God I DO KNOW is much better than the future I DON'T.
"my job is not to know, but to be." i am so with you! and welcome back, my friend. i can't wait for your next post.
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